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Mabuhay! I'm an Asian American writer (Back Kicks And Broken Promises, Abbott Press, 2012), martial artist and teacher who was born in The Philippines, raised in Hong Kong and ended up in New Jersey.

30 December, 2022

Tribute to Pele

Pele 

(Edson Arantes do Nascimento 

23 October 1940 – 29 December 2022)

 

I never saw him play live, in person or on TV, but for a long time after I was introduced to football he was the standard by which all footballers were measured. I’m writing, of course, of The King – Pele. I’m not going to go through his history in this blog post. Pele’s life story is well documented and easily accessible.  I’m merely going to express what he meant to me, as he did to the majority of football-loving fans, young and old, around the world. 

 

When I first heard about Pele, he was already playing for the New York Cosmos, the star-studded marquee team of the former NASL (North American Soccer League). I did get to watch the Cosmos play live on a vacation to the United States in 1982. My brother and I went while my sister and parents went to see a Broadway or Off-Broadway play. I think they went to see The Fantasticks.Around the same time, the movie Escape to Victory (released in some outlets as Victory) came out. It stars Sylvester Stallone, Michael Caine, and a bunch of footballers (Ossie Ardilles, Russell Osman, John Wark, Sir Bobby Moore, to name a few) playing prisoners of war during World War II. The movie was about their exploits playing a match against the German team and planning their escape with the help of the French resistance. Pele played one of the POWs. I recall his character being from Trinidad. 

 

While the movie is obviously scripted and choreographed, it’s evident that Pele was artistry in motion. Watching news reel footage of his career in various stages, you can see how his levels of brilliance, creativity, grace, and beauty never waned. They just became more amazing as he got older and became the legend that he is. I recently saw a post on Facebook showing clips of Pele doing all the amazing things that today’s stars do. The clip was called something like ‘Pele did it first’ and, while I admire Cristiano Ronaldo, Lionel Messi, Kylian Mbappe, and others for what they’ve done in their careers and what they do on the pitch, for me, Pele will always be the best. The only player to have won the World Cup three times, he set the standard. He was the best. To use today’s parlance, Pele is the goat. To paraphrase Neymar, who tweeted after Pele’s passing, football was just a sport before Pele. Pele turned it into art and entertainment. Due to Pele’s magnificence, the number 10 shirt became something to covet and something to fear. If you were given the number 10 to wear, it meant you were different, special, and big things were expected of you. Pele is to football what Muhammad Ali is to boxing and Bruce Lee to martial arts. In my opinion, as a form of tribute, it would be fitting to acknowledge the impact Pele had on football if for the remainder of the current football season around the world all players wore black armbands and there were a moment of silence before every match. 

 

As I grew into football, as a fan (I support Arsenal and Hamburger SV), player (I played during my school days for Island School (Hong Kong) and in a local grass roots league organised by some of my schoolmates), and coach (Hanover Park HS Boys Junior Varsity, Passaic County Community College Men, Solomon Schechter Day School Boys and Girls Varsity), I learnt of other legendary players (such as Franz Beckenbauer, Eusebio, Johan Cruyff, The Charlton brothers, George Best) who elevated football. Eventually rising stars became the talk of the media, claiming Pele’s mantle as the ‘best ever.’ There were Zico and Diego Maradona, who I was fortunate to see live in Hong Kong when he was still playing for Boca Juniors. Around the same time, there was Michel Platini wowing football fans with his skill and cool demeanour. Then came the likes of George Weah, Zinedine Zidane, Ronaldo, Ronaldinho. A little after came Lionel Messi and Cristiano Ronaldo, both many consider are the best to ever play the beautiful game. Crossing with their careers came Neymar and Mbappe, already a star at twenty-four years of age and sure to lead the next generation. Mbappe is a two-time World Cup finalist (winner in 2018 and runner-up in 2022) and has already surpassed many of Pele’s World Cup exploits.

 

All these players and all players around the world, all fans of every generation owe Pele a giant thank you. He may not have been the reason we got into football but I’m sure he’s a reason – if not THE reason – we love it. He inspired the players who came after him. So, too, were the ones he played with and against. If for nothing else, Pele motivated them to be better.

 

More than football, although some would argue what else is there other than football, Pele brought the world together with his infectious good nature, professing words of peace and love, and brandishing his trademark smile. He was an ambassador. He promoted the game he loved and now we love it too. He promoted humanity and love and peace through that game and you can see, in video clips and interviews, the innocence and unadulterated joy on his face when he talks about these things. It’s the same feelings one gets when watching him play and the elation on his face when he scores. He had the talent on the pitch. He had the humility on and off the pitch. He had the love for all mankind and he made us love him in return. He had longevity, sharing all of this and himself with us for eighty years. In all of these, he will be missed.

 

Thank you, Pele. God bless you and your family. Rest in peace. On behalf of those of us you’ve left behind, I promise that we will do our best to be worthy of being the custodians of your beautiful game.

13 April, 2022

The Soundtrack of My Life

 

    I was driving home yesterday when I switched radio channels from a regional Top 40 station to the Eighties Sirius XM channel.  The show was going through Billboard Top 100 from 1986 and No Easy Way Out, from the movie Rocky IV, which was released in the autumn of 1985, came on. The song brought all sorts of memories and feelings to the fore - excitement, hope, nostalgia, regret. It was around the time that Rocky IV came out when I took my first Taekwondo belt promotion test. In fact, I watched the movie the night before test day. For me, who would go on and follow a martial artist's path and continue Taekwondo training for decades to follow, the Rocky IV soundtrack and  No Easy Way Out, in particular, took on special meaning simply because of that random and unexpected connection. As quickly as those memories from the autumn of 1985, my first year living in the United States, they left me and Rocky V and the song Measure of a Man and the memories and feelings associated with them took their place. In my head were memories from 1991, when I graduated from Rutgers University, broke up with my college girlfriend, and had the rest of my life ahead of me. 

    It's interesting that two songs from different Rocky movies have such a strong connection to my life and the chronology of my hopes, dreams, successes, and failures. I assure you that there are non-Rocky and non-soundtrack songs that bring back memories of other important times and events of my life. And, don't worry. I'm not (not now, anyway) going to present you with a list of songs that make up my life but, if I did, I wonder what would be in it. An album is, what, twenty songs or so? Maybe it's a few less, sixteen or fourteen. If I do compile a soundtrack of my life, what songs would I include? Would I focus on monumental events in my life, like my wedding, and include my wedding song? Or, would I find a song for every year or decade that sums up what I did or felt or songs that represent my overall mood for each year?

    As I get older - as I've gotten older - and closer to my waning days, I look back more than I did in my thirties or, even, forties. Would coming up with a soundtrack to my life be merely hubris or would it be something worthwhile to leave my son? As a writer, I think it makes for an interesting exercise. Writers create worlds and lives and creating a soundtrack to a life can help form character, motivation, and dramatic need. As a man, husband, and father, I think it's a fun and meaningful endeavour. It can be a musical illustration of a person's evolution.

    No Easy Way Out and Measure of a Man will definitely make the final list of my soundtrack. So, too, I think will one or two Human League songs and several from different Broadway shows. What about yours? What's in the soundtrack of your life?

    Thanks for stopping by. 











03 January, 2021

My Ten Favourite Books of 2020


 My Ten Favourite Books Of 2020

 

I don’t think I’ve posted one of these in a couple of years so, as part of my personal resurgence and return to the things I love, I’ve decided to resurrect my annual ‘ten favourite books’ list. Since it’s been a while, I just want to remind you that this list is not based on what was published in this post’s titular year but, rather, of the books I read in that year. In fact, only two books on my list were published in 2020. Moreover, the list, with the exception for the first one, is not in any particular order. They aren’t ordered, for example, in what I think to be the best written. I have neither the expertise nor the authority to do that. Far be it for a self-published novelist and blogger to judge anyone’s literary aptitude. 

 

What this list represents are the books that resonated with me the strongest. I thoroughly enjoyed each one and they’re all brilliant. As with pretty much anything, what often crosses our paths isn’t what’s new or what we want or think we want. Instead, we’re often led to what we need. Regarding the book I’ve placed at number one, it’s been on my radar for several years but I don’t think I read it until now because I wasn’t at the right place to read it before now. The things that mean the most or the things that bring you the greatest joy aren’t always the latest thing but, rather, the thing you need the most when you need it the most. As far as the book at number one, it’s the one that hit me the hardest; down to my core and made me ask the most questions of myself. Having said that, what’s one reader’s classic may be another’s pulp, so it’s quite subjective really. 

 

So, without further ado, here’s my list of favourite books I read in 2020. I can’t wait to see what 2021 brings. 

 

On Writing: A Memoir of the Craftby Stephen King (2010, Scribner)

America Is In The Heart: A Personal Historyby Carlos Bulosan (2019, Blackstone Publishing, audiobook; originally published 1946)

The One and Only Ivanby Katherine Applegate (2021, HarperCollins)

Eastman Was Hereby Alex Gilvarry (2017, Viking)

KillingCommendatoreby Haruki Murakami (2018, Knopf)

Carmela Full of Wishesby Matt de la Peña(2018, G. P. Putnam’s Sons Books for Young Readers)

Murder in the Squash Court by Jonah Barrington (1982, Stanley Paul Hardcover)

99 Ways to Die(Taipei Night Market, #3) by Ed Lin (2018, Soho Press)

Loveboat, Taipei(Loveboat, Taipei, #1) by Abigail Hing Wen (2020, HarperAudio)

Lucky – Anil Nayar’s Story: A Portrait of a Legendary Squash Champion by Jean Nayar (2020, Five Rivers Press)

 

 

18 June, 2020

Seven Words Of Hope

18 June, 2020

Friday, the thirteenth of March of this year was the last time my son and I were in our respective middle schools. He’s in sixth grade and I teach seventh grade Health as well as sixth and eighth grade Physical Education.  My son’s school decided to close due to the coronavirus epidemic on the preceding Wednesday or Thursday, announcing a half day for all students and instructing them to bring home their books and such. My school district made a similar announcement on the Thursday and Friday was a half-day for the students and a full day for staff to plan what has become the new norm of distance learning. 

With three snow days that weren’t used, my district made the first Monday and Tuesday ‘snow days.’ That gave us more time to plan and prepare. As a result, we didn’t begin distance learning until Wednesday, the eighteenth.  My son’s school began on Monday, the sixteenth, but even so we were able to get to the club and play an hour of squash at 7am thanks to a 9am start for distance learning. Before that, we also had our usual Saturday session on the fourteenth. The lockdown/stay-at-home order hadn’t yet been declared by our governor and the severity of the coronavirus, the length of our school closures, and the impact on our lives were still unknowns. On Tuesday, things started shutting down and becoming very serious. For those who have suffered greatly – financially, emotionally, physically, the loss of a family member(s) – I offer you my condolences and prayers. Thankfully, my family and I have not suffered too badly although there has been a psychological and emotional toll.

That first Monday was the last time my son went anywhere. Since returning home from our squash session, other than for a couple of drives in the neighborhood, walking the dog, or venturing out for a workout (either a run, some kind of conditioning session on our driveway, a ‘squash’ game at a wall we found that has lots of room and where we can line out a court), he hasn’t left the house.  With the exception of running into a friend driving by and stopping to say hello and the Zoom party we had for his birthday in April, he hasn’t spoken to anyone other than my wife and I. Oh, and the dog. 

So, it was with great excitement when he had to return his school textbooks the other day. He had three – one for Social Studies and two for Language Arts – and I had to drive him to school and drop him off at a designated location. From there, he submitted the downloaded and printed ‘return form’ then, following instructions, he entered the new gymnasium (the one with direct outdoor access). Once inside, he returned his books to the assigned table. Each table was labeled with a different subject and there was a school administrator, office assistant, or PTA volunteer waiting to receive the returned texts. All of this was done with his mask and gloves on and with me waiting in the car. No more than two minutes had elapsed after I’d parked the car, when he was back and opening the door and sliding into the back seat. The book return was organized alphabetically by surname and scheduled blocks of time so it was very quick and easy. 

Other than being another reminder that the school year is ending and the summer break is coming, my son was very excited for this book return event. He joked on the way that he’s actually going somewhere. When he got back into the car, he was ecstatic that he’d gotten to speak to other human beings. They weren’t deep or meaningful conversations by any stretch of the imagination. He said he recognized some of the staff in the gym but none of them seemed to know him the way one of his teachers would have so the exchanges were brief. Nonetheless, he was thrilled. As we pulled out of the parking lot, I asked him how it went. His answer was so special and heartfelt and made me almost pull the car over and hug him as tightly as I could. His reply to my question was, “Seven words.” That’s what he’d said inside the gym. During various steps of the book return process, he’d had to answer two questions and make five affirmations. He said “okay” four times and one time each for his surname, “here” and “no.” From his reaction and the excitement he was displaying, I could’ve cried. You’d have thought he was just named Squash Player of the Year or received some other highly coveted accolade 

I get it, though. We live together, my wife, son and I. Naturally, we are the most important people in each of our lives and we love each other but, after twelve weeks together and 24/7 at that, any change is a wonderful thing. On one of my more recent trips to the supermarket, I had a conversation with a woman in the checkout line. Our grocery store has regular cashier checkouts as well as newly installed self-checkout machines. With social distancing, customers form a line and get called up when a cashier is open. She asked me if the line I was in was for self-checkouts or just the regular checkouts. I told her I wasn’t sure. Another customer knew the answer and told her (it’s the same line). After that, masks on, we had a chat about our previous supermarket trips and how there was no line, not many customers, and how the relative crowd on this day was probably due to the upcoming Memorial Day holiday. Eventually, using the self-checkout, she was called up ahead of me and went about her business. I’ll likely never see her again. Honestly, I wouldn’t be able to point her out if I did. I doubt she would recognize me either. 

The brief chat, as meaningless as it appeared to be, was actually one of the highlights of that day and, perhaps, even of this lockdown. I’ve always been a loner. I don’t have many friends and I don’t socialize much but I do understand and appreciate the need for and value of human contact. In these dark times, positive human interaction is like striking gold. Without it, there’s the potential for conditions like loneliness, sadness, and depression to develop. So, for my son to be totally overjoyed at having had seven brief conversations, each with him only having to say just a solitary word, I am overjoyed and grateful. I’m happy that he had some additional human contact and that he cherishes it, whether he realizes it or not. I’m thankful that the school had the students bring the books back and not just the parents. Kids are vulnerable. So, too, are adults. We all need human interaction. We all need to feel connected – to one another and the larger world around us. In a small way, my chat in the supermarket and my son’s seven words connected us to our community and made us feel a part of something. 

In pre-coronavirus life, these kinds of interactions would’ve been nothing more than an encounter with another person and not likely be thought about ever again. With the isolation and distancing, much needed to help combat against this pandemic, and which I think are still needed, these brief encounters become so much more.  In these dire times, more so than ever, we need that sense of connectedness and community. Seeing his school and stepping in it, gave my son a bit of that. It, also, offered him a glimpse of hope and a return to some kind of normalcy; that there is a world out there and that there is a life after COVID, after crisis. Who knows if we’ll get back to the normal we used to know. Maybe we shouldn’t and we need to create a new and better normal. Either way, we need hope and hope can come in the form of a place, a person or even a single word. 


28 June, 2019

Cheeky Drop Shot

 Cheeky Drop Shot 

- A Hacker’s Account Of A Weeklong Squash Camp That Gives Back 

 

When I was in my late twenties to early thirties, I ran a lot. I ran 5Ks, 10Ks, 5 milers, Turkey Trotruns, half-marathons, and marathons. For a back-of-the-packer, I had a 5K PR of 21:21. I’m told that’s not too shabby. In a single mile rub, I pulled off a 6:50. Another thing I heard a lot when I was a ‘serious amateur’ (an issue of Runner’s Worldthat came out sometime around 1998 or 1999 had an article about running identities and I fell in the ‘serious amateur’ classification) was that one of the glories of running a marathon, especially one of the big ones, is that you get to say you’ve competed against and with some of the world’s best on the the exact same course in the same conditions. 

 

In the course of one’s life, it’s not likely that you’ll ever play with or against your favourite athlete or any other top athlete unless you’ve won a lottery or, through some kind of corporate connection for charity, find yourself in a fundraising game or something of the like. That changed for me on a few nights ago on 24 June 2019.  

 

I’ve been playing squash on-and-off since I was first introduced to it in the early 1980s. I was still living in Hong Kong and I was attending Island School. Next to the school was a squash facility that, at the time, might have been the base of the Hong Kong Squash Racquets Association. Squash was part of our Physical Education program and I started playing after school and at break times with my friends. When I moved to the United States, there weren’t courts around so I stopped playing for a couple of years until I went to university at Rutgers. There, I made friends with one of my Economics students, fellow Asian from Singapore. He introduced me to the Rutgers Squash Club. The club met every Friday and we played. At one point, a team was formed and we played a hardball match against Steven’s Tech. I don’t recall the outcome of the match (I think we won) but I did horribly. In my defense, it was the first and only time I’ve played a hardball match.  Moving ahead twenty-five years, I discovered Lifetime Fitness, a nationwide facility that its squash friendly. The two locations near where I live have four courts each and it was the sound of a softball squash ball hitting the front wall that convinced me to join. Since then, I’ve been playing regularly and I’ve introduced my son to the sport. He wants to go pro and that has brought my story back around to the present. 

 

As part of the squash programming at Lifetime, where my son takes group and private lessons and competes as a member of the Lifetime Squash Team, there was a weeklong camp with James Willstrop coaching the first two days and Miguel Angel Rodriguez leading the rest of the week. Willstrop is a former world number one and is currently ranked at nineteen. Rodriguez is currently ranked at number nine and both have won some of the sport’s most coveted titles. My son is enrolled in the camp but there were also adult clinics being run. 

 

On the first night, Willstrop ran an intense 90-minute session. There were twelve adults and we were split into groups of three based on our skill level. We did game-like drills that forced us to focus on specific skills or situations and Willstrop rotated between the courts and assessed and gave pointers. I’ve met and spoken with some squash pros before this and I mean more than “Can I have your autograph?” or “Can we get a picture?” I’ve had chats with Tarek Momen (world number three) and his wife, Raneem El Wellily, (current world number one).


I’ve had several chats with Nick Matthew (former world number one and three time world champion). My son has taken Nick’s camp and he will do so again this summer, this time for two weeks. One of those weeks, the camp’s guest head coaches will be Laura Massaro (former world number one and former world champion) and her husband, Danny, with whom I had lunch at last January’s Tournament of Champions at the Nick Matthew Academy reception in New York City. My son and I also had lessons at The Charing Cross Sports Centre in London with Abid Khan, also a PSA-ranked squash pro. The session on 24 June, however, was the first time I had coaching - okay, maybe coaching is pushing it but I can at least say instruction – from a PSA-squash player who had reached the top of the ranking. Reminder, Willstrop is a former number one. 

 

As the evening went on, jumping from one paired or group drill to another, I visibly noticed some improvements in my technique and I felt myself getting better. I grew more consistent with my backhand, remembering to cock my wrist and keep my racquet head up. Willstrop went around and corrected, suggested, and encouraged and it was absolutely brilliant. I could almost feel the new crevices of knowledge and muscle memory forming in my brain. I help coach my son on the squash court and I coach or have coached other sports, I have a Master’s Degree in Coaching and Sports Administration, and I am a Health and Physical Education teacher so grasping sports skills and concepts has always been fairly easy for me and during this clinic it was like Willstrop translated a foreign language into one I can understand. That’s how amazing he is and how simple yet enlightening the drills were. Moreover, with Willstrop being patient, generous, and a gentleman, it wasn’t hard to open my eyes. While my own game was improving, however, it’s really because of my son why all of this is important. He wants to be a pro and he wants to be world champion. Anything I can do to help him achieve that, well, it’s the minimum a father can do. That’s why I signed up for this clinic and the one to follow with Rodriguez.

 

Towards the end of the Willstrop session, I was moved up a court/level and played ‘King of the Court’ with two higher-level players. I was so inspired that I dare say I held my own. When Willstrop joined us, I served from the left box and he hit me with a perfect high and deep rail that I had no chance on. In plopped perfectly into the back right corner and all I could do was swing at it, clipping the glass back wall on my  stroke. The next cycle, again from the left box,  I went with a high and deep lob serve. Even though Willstrop is 6’4”, I felt it was a better option than serving something that he’d just blast into the corner for a trickle boast winner. Willstrop was kind and returned with a high pancake that I pounced on and countered with a drop shot. If I may say so, it was a really good drop but, in real life, I’d never have had the chance to take it and, if I would, I’d never have won it because Willstrop would’ve come up and hit me with crosscourt winner or lob or another drop and make look like the hacker I am. On paper, though, I won a point off a former world number one. Ha ha! There’s no proof, however, except for the eyewitness accounts of the two other guys on the court, Willstrop himself, and my son’s coach. If they don’t corroborate my point, it’ll forever be my Loch Ness. All kidding aside, though, just being on court with Willstrop made me feel like a squash player. 

 

In my fifty years on this planet, I’ve lived on two continents and three countries. I’ve visited numerous other countries and I’ve had a lot of really cool experiences and met some really amazing people. This clinic, however, as a squash player, an amateur squash coach, the father of a squash player, and human being has been one of the best and most meaningful and one of those I will remember vividly however many years I have left on this earth. Most places mainly offer squash programs for kids. Lifetime and its squash staff, Andy and Phil, and Willstrop for his generosity of knowledge, time, and spirit – stepping in for former world number one and former world champion, Gregory Gaultier, who had to withdraw due to injury – and Rodriguez have made it possible for hackers like me and, of course, the elite players at our club, to get this unique experience. For some of us, it may be a once in a lifetime experience. For others, perhaps it opens doors to more and bigger experiences on the squash court. For me, it made me feel like I can be a better player and a better coach to my son. 

 

On the second night, Willstrop had another ninety-minute session in which those who signed up got to play against him. I didn’t stay to watch that but the camp coaches told me all about it the next day and how much of a blast the participants had playing against a former world number one and one of the best to ever play the game. I could only imagine it, looking ahead to night three when I was slated to have a run around with Rodriguez on night three. Rodriguez, nicknamed ‘The Colombian Cannonball,’ had two hours set for the run around. The first hour was reserved for the top players, of which there were three, and the second hour for those a little below. I was in the second group, naturally, and looking at them warm up and having watched some of them play in tournaments and casual club play, I wondered if they ought to be in group one. 

 

As group one played, games to seven in rotation with Rodriguez staying on, I was inspired, amazed at the competitiveness of our club players, and scared as hell. All sorts of scary thought took me over – I’m going to embarrass myself and get laughed off the court, I’m going to have a heart attack, I’m going to blow my knee out again or re-aggravate my ankle. After moments of dread, I resorted to my black belt training and began to breathe. I got on an empty court with my son and hit. 

 

Then it was my turn. I was the last in my group in rotation and, as a result, was the last to play Rodriguez that night, which was probably fitting since I was definitely the weakest of all eight players. As soon as I got on court, all my fears vanished. Rodriguez is a gentleman. He greeted me with a firm handshake, a friendly smile, introduced himself and said “Mui bien.” We did a short knock up then we played. He was gracious and played challenging shots for me and played to my level. I felt like I was my son and he was son’s coach when I watch them on the court. He gave me a let ball when in real life it was a winner. He coached me as we played; telling me when I hit a good shot and when I could still get the ball. On the let, I ran into him –one of my fears of the night; that I would be the one to injure him. Instead, my 5’11” much heavier person was stopped in his tracks by this 5’5” brick wall. In the end, I had two games with him to nine points and, looking back on the videos, both went 9-4. He was kind and made me look better than I am and didn’t make me feel like I didn’t belong. 

 

These two up close experiences with Willstrop and Rodriguez are two I will never forget. As much as I have to thank Lifetime, the coaches, Willstrop, and Rodriguez, I have to thank my son. If he weren’t serious about squash and didn’t want to be a pro, we probably wouldn’t have enrolled in these events. To share these moments with him are priceless. Hearing his voice in the videos cheering me on, the voice of God in a father’s ears. What’s more is to see these pros in a different light. Seeing them on Squash TV or live at the Tournament of Champions is one thing. To see them up close as people is another. Willstrop is open and generous with his time and knowledge. Rodriguez lives in the moment. In the sessions I saw him run on his first day, he was the one who started taking pictures. He pulled out his camera before any us, relishing the experience as much as the campers and adult players did. At two different photo opportunities, both my son and I got to take pictures with his phone. How crazy is that? Would you ever imagine it? I’m an Arsenal fan but can’t ever imagine being in a position to hold, say, Hector Bellerin’s or Alexandre Lacazette’s mobile phone to take pictures of him with his fans and at his request no less. 

 

On night four, Rodriguez played against Faraz Khan, the 122ndranked PSA player, and Ayush Menon, the number one U19 US boy in exhibition matches. Top-level squash, basically, in my backyard. Can’t beat it. In the first match, Rodriguez bested Menon 2-0 (11-3, 11-3) although Menon showed some good play and was as much an inspiration to the juniors who were watching as Rodriguez was. The next match was an all-pro affair, again played to best-out-of-three, with Khan taking on The Colombian Cannonball. With Menon having already lost, it was up to Khan to try to restore some American and New Jersey pride (both Menon and Khan are from New Jersey). It was tight going in the first game, with both players showing the quality of their professional training and experience, but in the end Rodriguez won the first game 11-7. In the second, Rodriguez was up 10-7 with match ball in hand but Khan regained his poise pulled back to 10-all. With both players exchanging rails on the left wall, Khan attempted to change pace and pulled off a crosscourt drop that hit the tin giving Rodriguez an 11-10 lead and another attempt to serve or the match. He prevailed and won 12-10. 

 

Lifetime and its squash program, it should be noted, didn’t just run these events as an option for parents to send their children in the summer or to boost its squash profile and program. As part of the evening’s festivities, a silent auction was held for an autographed James Willstrop racquet made by Unsquashable and currently unavailable in the United States. A lottery raffle, for $10 a ticket, was also held. The prize was the racquet Willstrop used for the camp. All proceeds, with no money going to any of the players, goes to Street Squash. Street Squash is an organization whose mission is to provide support to inner youth, particularly in Harlem (NY) and Newark (NJ), with resources to succeed. One of those resources is to expose them to as many new experiences as possible and squash is one of those experiences. 

 

Shortly after his arrival, I got to take a picture of Khan with my son and chat with him. He asked about my son and how long he’s been playing. He also asked about my own squash experience. At the end of the event, just as we were leaving, Khan wished my son good luck with his squash pursuits. Just another example of the generosity of spirit and class of the pros Lifetime brings to its members. The coaches have told me that more exciting programs are schedule in the near future with other top players and coaches (I’m not at liberty to say whom they’re trying to bring in) coming in as the featured guests but from the names that were mentioned this squash-playing writer is very excited. Personally, I’d love to see them bring in Nick Matthew, Tarek Momen, Saurav Ghosal, Max Lee, Camille, Serme, Laura Massaro, Amanda Sobhy, and Nicol David; favourites of mine, great players and, from the interactions and conversations I’ve had with some of them, top class individuals.

 

Whatever the effects – immediate or long lasting - this week will have on my son and I, only time will tell. In the meantime, I say thank you. Thank you, Lifetime. Thank you, Andy and Phil. Thank you, James. Thank you, Miguel. At the start of the week, watching the others warm up, I felt like I shouldn’t be there. For the most part, I play in the safe confines of my club early in the morning. I spend some time training my son, duplicating drills he does with Andy and adding some from websites like squashskills.com, then playing a match or two to end the session. Sometimes we play with the scoring rules I grew up with – nine points, you have to serve to score. I like doing this because I believe it teaches my son how to earn a point as opposed to winning points off his opponent’s errors. So, enrolling in adult clinics like the ones with Willstrop and Rodriguez was something out of my usual modus operandi. Filled with excitement and equal amounts of trepidation, at the end of the first night, I felt I’d held my own. I’m no way, suddenly, any kind of top player at my club but I feel more a member of the squash community than I did before and that’s because quality human beings like James, Andy, Phil, and Miguel nurture that community and welcome aging and injured and out-of-shape hackers like me. 

 

19 June, 2017

Knee Saga

19 June, 2017

KNEE SAGA

I have depressive tendencies.

I haven’t been diagnosed but I’ve read enough to see a lot of the characteristics of a depressive in myself; things like being alone, losing interest in stuff, not wanting to go anywhere or do anything, feelings of hopelessness, to name a few. I also tend to see things darkly. That, however, might just be a practical approach to things. I’d rather prepare for the worst so that I’m ready for it if or when happens – in my mind, it’s more likely when than if. If it doesn’t happen, that’s a bonus.

With the ongoing saga that is my knee, my depressive triggers have resurfaced. I had a follow-up appointment with my ortho last Tuesday and he examined my knee, which was feeling pretty good. During the examination, a sharp pain emanated from within the joint. As the days passed since seeing him, the pain has gotten stronger. (Over the weekend, though, it’s subsided but that’s because I’ve been off my leg for a lot of the time.) My doctor ordered an MRI that I got last Saturday. He also used the word ‘surgery.’ It’d be a 30-minute arthroscopic procedure but with a four to eight week recovery. He said at four weeks I’d be walking again, although not any long distances, and at eight weeks I’d be ‘normal.’ Whatever that means, I’m not entirely sure.

The last few days, my mind and my heart have been in a whirlwind of uncertainty. I coach volleyball. I don’t do a lot of the drills or jumps and runs I put the team through but I do need to be able to instruct and demonstrate. I need to be on my feet on court. I also have a summer job that pays hourly and I need the money. Knee surgery now would impact upon both of these things and not in a positive way. With a four to eight week recovery period, if I got the surgery now, I’d be better by mid-August. There’s plenty of volleyball left to coach and I can continue to prepare for the sixth degree black belt test in December I’m trying to get approved for. Getting the surgery now, however, would also mean no income because I wouldn’t be able to work.  On the flip side, and if the diagnosis isn’t so bad that I have to undergo the surgery now and I can put it off, I could possibly go about my summer as normal and get the surgery after the volleyball season has concluded in November or, maybe, even after the sixth dan test a month later.

Deep down, I know I’ll end up not taking or not being able to take test and that pisses me off and brings me down. I’ll either be laid up recovering, my knee will be in even worse shape, and/or I won’t be prepared. Since I was a kid, there are two things I’ve always wanted to be – a writer and a martial artist. I’ve been both to some level of success. In the 1990s, I managed to sell articles to various martial arts magazines and get paid for them. I’ve published a book and gotten a touch of respect and notoriety because of it. That’s not enough, however. I want to be a working writer. As for the martial arts, I’ve had several good years of training, teaching and competing. I had my own dojang (training hall) twice in my life but, more than that, I’ve tried to live my life and guide my actions according to the warrior ways prescribed by the codes of Bushido, The Samurai and The Hwarang. Even without a dojang now, I try to train at my wife’s dance studio whenever I can and, through my daily actions at work, on the volleyball court and more, I try to live according to what my black belt symbolises. Thankfully, so far, I am able to absorb and accept the situation I am in because of what I’ve learnt and taught as a martial artist.

For now, I’ll use my indomitable spirit and of perseverance to forge ahead and battle this renewed opponent, my knee, and its allies of age, injury and life. Throughout the battle, I hope I make the right decisions on when to get my surgery, if I do actually need it, and my training for the sixth dan test.


Thanks for stopping by.

02 June, 2017

Making Choice - Life 2 Juan 0


Making Choices - Life 2 Juan 0

2 June, 2017

Last autumn, I reinjured the knee I damaged in 1996. I was doing a lot of running, getting back in shape and training towards earning a guaranteed spot in the 2017 New York City Marathon (NYCM). I’d begun my training the previous April and was in a good groove. As a result of my injury, I had to forego my 2017 NYCM dreams. I followed my doctor’s instructions, did the PT (physical therapy) and slowly my knee was getting better. Before long, I was doing some cardio training (no running) and playing squash. Throughout all of it, I’d do some flexibility training and some light Taekwondo training when I could squeeze it in. I don’t have my own school anymore and I coach volleyball from August to November so finding a time and place wasn’t - and isn’t - always the easiest thing.

Recently, I’d gotten into another good groove. I was training regularly, eating better, and dropping weight. Then I discovered that the Kukkiwon (the world governing body of Taekwondo) will be holding special promotion tests in the United States throughout the year in various locations. One of them is taking place in New Jersey this December. This coming August, I will have met the time requirement to test for my sixth degree black belt and I’m using the test as impetus to up my training; all while monitoring the strength of my knee. I don’t know if my application will be accepted and, depending on my knee, if I’ll even be able to perform. If I am, I hope I am able to perform that deems me worthy in the eyes of the examiners, and my own eyes, to be awarded my sixth dan.

As life would have it, I reaggravated my knee two Sundays ago while mowing the lawn - our uneven, undulating lawn. I maneuvered the lawn mower to turn left but it got caught on one of the bumps and didn’t turn. My knee did, however. All this after completing the Euflexxa treatments my doctor recommended. So, I went back to the doctor, got another cortisone shot and was given a pair of loaner crutches. I’ve stopped using the crutches but I still have a minor limp and there’s still a little stiffness and an occasional shooting pain. I’m hoping in a week or so that the pain and limp will vanish enough that I can get back to some cardio and, eventually, light then regular Taekwondo training.

For now and for the next six months, that’s where my focus has to be. I have to give up squash, which is going to be a killer because I enjoy it, it’s a great workout and it’s my son’s and my ‘thing’ together. Without a school and master to train under, I need these opportunities like the Kukkiwon special promotion test and preparing for it is going to take up much of my extra energy and time. Like the old Chinese adage says, “One has to eat bitter to taste sweet.” It’s a choice I hate having to make but it’s one that has to be made. As much as I love squash and athletic pursuits, Taekwondo is a martial art and martial arts are about life. They’re not just the physical attributes one develops through practicing them. If you’re reading this and you’re someone who knows me well, you know that since 1985 I am and have always been a martial artist before most everything else. You’ll also know that I didn’t get into martial arts training for the physical benefits but for the psychological, spiritual and emotional ones. If I could have a regular place to train, I would be willing to give up almost everything else to train daily even if my knee wasn’t injured. The other option, albeit a forced one, is to choose to hang up my squash racquet and my black belt but that would be completely contrary to what martial arts are all about. Quitting martial arts just because my physical abilities have waned decision would be akin to giving up on who I am and what I’ve believed in the last thirty-two years.

So, while life leads two-nil in our current match, I’m hoping to pull a goal back in December. And after that, who knows? Maybe I’ll find an equalizer and even a winner. In the meantime, trying to see a positive out of all of this, I’m hoping that my predicament can be a lesson my son can learn as well; that one has to make sacrifices and choices that he might won’t like or want to make in order to get what he wants or needs.